My aunt came to visit my family this weekend all the way from across the country. She is a lot to handle sometimes (to say the least), so much so that I don't even forget that despite the fact that I see her maybe once a year. I learned a valuable lesson while she visited this time though.
Lately I have allowed obstacles that are out of my control to govern my mood and actions. I once waited 40 minutes for the bus and became so distraught that I almost didn't go out that night. It took a verbal reminder that a bus can only slow me down not control me, to get me to snap out of it. I noticed today that if I continue on that way, letting every little thing get me down, in 40 years I will be my aunt. My inflexible and easily triggered emotions will make me a pain for those around me. Nobody wants other people to treat them with kid gloves, unless you're paying money for that.
I imagine that when you're in that self-absorbed emotion bubble for no reason, its hard to see how your behaviour affects others. A lot of the time you think nobody else is being affected but in reality everyone around you can tell you're just being an emotional monster and does not want to deal with you. Before you know it you're that person who makes people need a stiff drink or a long nap after talking to you.
So I'm going to try this thing where I don't let stupid things like the bus, my friends' work schedules or the fruits on sale at Loblaws get me down. It might be hard at first since my go-to response to dissatisfaction is either tears or to squish everything that can fit in my hands. Its totally a rut though, and once I'm out of it I will be a lot more tolerable I'm sure. In fact, I wish I could give awards to the people who put up with me on the regular, but that is a post for another day.
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