The Half-Asleep Brain

   I wish I could somehow harness the bizarreness and undoubted confidence of my half-asleep brain. Last night I woke up and thought of something (for my life I can't remember what) and thought "hey thats a great idea" and promptly fell back asleep. Then I woke up a bit later, remembering the previous idea thought "what a stupid idea. I was clearly half asleep. I should blog about it and specifically say this about it-" slumber.
   Double bad ideaception! I can't remember what the original thought was or what hilarious and witty comment I had about it, but I can promise you that in the middle of the night I knew no uncertainty or doubts. I thought my idea was the shit, it probably wasn't but I admire the half-asleep brain and its unfailing confidence. The awake-brain is racked with hesitancy and insecurity. The totally asleep brain does not give any fucks whatsoever.
   I wish that I had the same confidence when awake as half-asleep, or the same articulative skill and resources when half-asleep as I do awake. But then maybe I'd just be a dangerously good writer... But seriously, I envy little kids for their imaginative freedom. In their minds, the craziest shit can be happening (I can't even give you an example that would do their creativity justice) and it won't make any sense, but they have complete faith in the made-up situation. The imaginary friend for example, is never questioned. Its not like kids sit down with their imaginary friends over a glass of tea that is really water and question the existence of their dinner guest.
   I think claiming to curse society and how it has stifled the creative brain is cliche. Instead I will curse my own lack of self confidence. I'm sure the ideas would come much easier if you weren't predisposed to uncertainty. Running with an idea is hard because once you take something on you've committed to it and develop a connection to it. Writing a piece is like being in a relationship, you learn all of the other one's flaws and sometimes you hate your partner by the end of it, but that doesn't mean you don't still want the relationship to work.