Make it look easy (?)

   I have recently been thinking a lot about signs and symbols and phrases that I hear in my day to day life that I can turn into personal mantras. Do I have enough time? I'll answer your question with another question: would someone with too much time on their hands improvise a one-woman musical inspired by the Price Chopper weekly savings flyer?
   I conceived a phrase (that has been conceived a million times before) and I can't decide if its really good advice or really bad advice: "make it look easy". On the one hand it can show that nothing gets to you, on the other hand it can seem like you don't actually work very hard, or care very much. I generally find that when people make difficult things look effortless I am a simultaneous blend of awe and jealous rage.
   The next question is if you were to take this on as your mantra and adapt it in the full, how would you feel? I don't know that I'd feel better about myself if I made all my struggles look effortless. Its not really the same as pulling off a hoax or general sneakery (like when you successfully blame a fart on another dinner guest) because there isn't any risk. As much as hard work should be rewarding to oneself first and foremost, it is extra-rewarding to hear someone else acknowledge it.
   I know that as much as I would love to be mysterious and have nobody know anything about my less-than-shady past, I like to talk. I truly wish I didn't like to share the mundane aspects of my life, but lets face it, I do have a blog. And as much as I would love nothing more than to make it all look easy, I worry that if I didn't express my constant struggles, nobody would reassure me. At the end of the day I think it takes either extreme insecurity (knowing that nobody wants to hear your shit) or extreme self-reliance to make everything look easy (truly not needing anyone to be there for you).
   When I am in the midst of a lot of struggles -bear in mind that a 10/10 struggle for me is a normal person's 6/10- I try to remember all the people who support me. In fact, I don't have to try very hard, because the amount that I complain to them is enough that I get constant reassurance almost every day. So I think for their sakes, I will try to make everything look easier. I know I will always talk too much to make everything look easy, but for the record, I've still got some secrets that I can't wait to reveal when I am a fifty year-old loose canon at my future godson's bar mitzvah!